Tuesday, January 17, 2017

Second year, semester 1.

Assalamualaikum,

Well, this is the extension from the previous post. I haven't talk about my semester sangat pun. I know. Sorry. 

So.. I took 

1. Genetic engineering
2. Mycology
3. Basic genetic
4. English
5. TITAS
6. Budi penyayang (kokurikulum)

Well, all these subjects required assignment with tons of literature reviews (journal and article). Insane! I know right. This semester is the start of all busy-ness.. Okay. calm down.. Haha.. Well this semester I took 15 credited hours and this time the study week was quite long.. About 2 weeks. Mesti korang fikir I have plenty of time for study kan? Haha, nope. I wasn't studying gila-gila. And I am not born to do so. So.. I will start study when I feel like to and I am study group kind of person. But also, I need some time to study individually first.

I don't like this semester that much since I was really busy. I don't have much time to complete my work as perfectly as I wanted. I mean memang laa siap jea, But I don't relly satisfied. Tapi sokay. Semuanya dah berlalu.. Result pun dah keluar. Alhamdulillah it wasn't as excellent as previous sem but still above my expectation. Alhamdulillah :)

All those hard work was totally worth it.

Well, as I said this semester was quite busy.. Let me just share some of the moments 

This semester:

I moved to a new house :) Taman sebelah jea XD *tak ada sebab-sebab yang menyebabkan kitorang kena pindah.. 

Jadi fasi lagi.. yay :D

My cousin get married <3

The bridesmaid

GE lab members: Syafiq, Me, Bella and Anis
Syafiq is a bruneian (is that a word idk) 

The most bizarre presentation ever! Macam viva rasanya.. Asyik kena shoot jea.. Sabo jea laa. Seb baik result ok.. Alhamdulillah..


TNRM in the action! (Budi penyayang)


Cat neuter day!

Sesi menculik kucing-kucing jantan di UTM
Perasan tak siapa driver `__` hehe. Ya sayaaaaaaa XD This semester, I have enough courage to drive a car yay! Alhamdulillah. But for this time around.. Dalam UTM jea laa. Luar tu.. Kena fikir 14 kali. Kenapa 14? Sukati laa.. HAHA.. Alhamdulillah dengan bantuan  supporters semua. Cerita kalau nak balik rumah.. I masih bergantung to my parents. I'll call them so they guide me from front. It's quite scary bila keluar UTM. So I main dalam jea. UTM besar apa. So doakan saya supaya dapat keberanian bawak luar pulak. Sokay pelan-pelan. It's a process c:

The scratches that I made.. Ni bila I keluar UTM.. kat Aeon -,- I'm sorry Encik Viva.. Huhu. I didn't mean to hurt you. But I did..

PET Expo at Danga City Mall

Menunggu hari neuter


To Danga City Mall w/ keyra and hajar

Habis PET Expo!

Kucing ni nama dia Masturah :3 

Ok. Maybe this TNRM is the highlight of my whole one semester. Since this TNRM that make me so busy. From, kutip donation, jaga gerai, tangkap kucing, jaga kucing, tengok proses neuture, BUAT SIJIL, jaga booth, beri kesedaran tentang TNRM. Yup. Those things. Mana laa saya pernah buat. So this is EXPERIENCE for me. Lagi-lagi buat sijil part. In the beginning, I was the one yang volunteer nak buat.. Nak try benda baru kononnya.. Which kena guna a little photoshop skills and creativity.. It ended up took me about 3 weeks to a month just to settle up this certificate. About 30+ copies of sijil that I have to do. Alhamdulillah, terkenangkan benda tu dah siap.. Such a relief. To be honest, buat sijil banyak menggangu kerja saya yang lain. Sebab stuck dengan sijil jea. Banyak kali kena edit.. Since I have to consult with the lecturer first. But at the end, semuanya membuahkan hasil :) Well, as I said before. This is such an EXPERIENCE for me. This whole TNRM thing really taught me to be really patient, to be tolerant and also confident..

Designs that I came up with:


 
He chose this one


I know it wasn't that cool.. I am just a beginner. Semoga lepas ni I'll be more creative and more better with photoshop.

:D
There were a lot of dramas with this Koq.. But yeah. It's over and I am happy now XD

I bought new phone

There were a lot of things happened during this semester yet it is impossible to list down of of them. The bitter sweet moments, tears and smiles. Well, at the end of the day, that is life.. as a normal human being. Maybe it will be different if I am anak datuk or something.

We ending our semester w/ jalan-jalan dengan geng kak hajar <3


Dakgalbi 
Korean food
Sutera Mall





From left: Kak Hajar, Me, Syikin, Kimah, Syera, Keyra, Ati and Kak Akma


After we all dah berjalan ke Sutera mall, Aeon Tebrau.. Kami pun pulang. To really wrap the semester up.. We made a makan-makan lagi.. But kali ni kat bilik jea. Bilik Fahda.. Sekali ngan birthday surprise for Atilea :)

Carbonara Fahda (dapat banyak compliment <3)


Steam bot ala student

Since me and Kak Akma balik a little bit lambat.. Kitorang pi berenang di Swimming pool UTM :D

Nope. I can't swim XP But kak Akma ajar saya. First masuk I was freaked out.. Haha.. Paras dagu kot kedalaman dia.. Haha.. Oh kak Wani pun ada.. Such a funny day :P


Kak Akma, Me, Kak Nab and Kak Wani *Bidadari <3

Babai! Jumpa sem depan In shaa Allah :)

Saturday, January 14, 2017

Saya milik Allah

Assalamualaikum :)

I suggested y'all make yourself some tea or snack and lets get through my semester together. Well what a hectic, stressful and busy semester. I bet this is the starting semester where my remaining semester will be as hectic or even worst than this one. You know what. I don't wanna say that I am a active person when it comes to programs. But, surprisingly, this semester I am barely joined any of the programs. I'm just trying so hard for the credited subject. The assignment were just so bizarre. Journals and articles is my everyday thing. Oh yeah, all those torture ended last January 9th. In shaa Allah, whatever the result is.. I have done the effort part, may Allah gives me the result that  reflects my effort. I know that He knows everything that good for me. Even the bad things happen, deep down.. There will be the bright side. Just how I see it, or y'all see it :)

Alhamdulillah, I still alive and still living as a muslim, the biggest nikmat that we often forget. This semester kind of changing the inner me. When I analyzed the nasheed that has line: Ingat 5 perkara, sebelum lima perkara... lapang sebelum sempit.. That particular line really got me. Since this semester really challenged me with my time management. I have to settle up my koQ, assignments, tests, presentations, lab reports and the most importantly usrah. Yup.. y'all panggil dak2 usrah.. Haha. Well, yes.. Saya masuk usrah..

Alhamdulillah, masih lagi yang peduli masalah ummat yang tunggang langgang. Yang sentiasa berada di zon kelabu. FITRAH. You have one point that you really want to change and to be a better muslim. Well, to be honest, I thought usrah is something like you want to balancing your temporary life (dunya) with the afterlife (akhirat).. That is one of the objective.. But as I goes deep into this usrah thing, it widens my mind and importantly my heart .. I am still learning and I am trying to remove all the unnecessary things left inside myself to purify my iman. I am not maksum that free from sins. Sometimes, I attracted to my desires and you know syaitan that will not give up with their promise.

My parent(s).. They kinda not liking me join this usrah. Since one of them does not know who is Syeikh Qutb and Hasan Al-Banna. So, for this time around I keep my mouth shut from saying usrah or what so ever that related in front of them. In shaa Allah, one day I hope they will understand, not only why I joined usrah.. But also why usrah is so much important. For all muslimin and muslimat this akhir zaman. But after all, usrah pun ada banyak. So choose the right one. Doakan saya yaa sahabat2 untuk saya dan kalian menuju Ustaziyatul Alam bersama.. Bagaimana 313 orang yang menaikkan Islam pada zaman dahulu.. Begitu juga kita. Akhir nanti, Islam akan tegak semula.. Percaya lah.

Jika ujian muslim lain bermain dengan darah.. Ujian kita di Malaysia adalah KESIBUKAN, PERCINTAAN, HARTA, HIBURAN. Kita sudah sebati dengan elemen duniawi yang bersifat fanak ni.. How cheap all those tests for Firdausi? It seems that people does not serious in entering Jannah. The ultimate happiness beyond our imagination. 

Akak-akak usrah yang datang tu cuma mengingatkan kita. Menjalankan dakwah. Kita? Kita juga perlu meniti ilmu Allah dan memahami isi kandungan Al-quran untuk mencapai kejayaan di Akhirat. Kerana menjadi da'ie itu adalah kewajipan semua muslim. Nanti masa hari perhitungan.. Kau nak jawab apa kalau Allah tanya "Apa yang kau buat untuk agamaKu?". Do you want to be the person that simply answer "Aku sibuk study mengejar cita-cita sedang mereka yang lain sedang terseksa di Syria, tertindas di Rohingya". To clear things up, there is no wrong on pursuing your dreams. But in the way pursuing your dreams never ever forget our objective of life. I mean our objective of life. Menjadi abid dan khalifah. In shaa Allah, kita niatkan segala yang kita lakukan untuk Allah. Ia akan menjadi ibadah. The khalifah part. Khalifah or pemimpin. Memimpin siapa? Diri, keluarga, masyarakat dll. untuk apa? Memakmurkan bumi pinjaman Allah. Well, y'all see bumi kita macam mana sekarang? Makmur ke? Without Khalifah yang memimpin.

After sistem khalifah dilupuskan.. Nasib muslim kucar-kacir. And the product of that muslim is us now. Jauh dari Islam. After Islam jatuh, guess who menaik? Barat.. And at that moment, sekularisme, liberalisme pun menular... entertainment, technologies that makes muslims further away from Islam.

Perjuangan Nabi, sahabat2 nabi.. hancur.. And kita biar ia sebagai satu sejarah jea. Me too at first. But my perspective had changed. It is our duty to bring Islam back! The way it starts when Prophet Muhammad brought Islam, it has to be the same way to start but in this case.. us, muslims. We start at the very beginning. Tanamkan iman dalam individu untuk menghasilkan individu muslim.

Hasil carian imej untuk ustaziatul alam

When people starts to say usrah is nonsense and "sesat".. At first, saya pun termakan dengan momokan tu.. But you know what. I give it a go and let see what happen. At first memang rasa like.. Kenapa ada usrah time nak ada assignment, test, final.. Usrah tu bukan lama pun. 1-2 jam.. And kau ada 24 jam. Takkan nak belajar agama Allah yang dipayungi malaikat dan didoakan makhluk lain pun kau tolak? Bukan ambil separuh hari masa kau pun. Tapi, sejujurnya first2 pun saya rasa ini adalah cabaran. Peperangan antara hawa nafsu serta syaitan.. Haha. In shaa Allah, Allah beri kekuatan untuk saya dan kalian.

Hasil carian imej untuk wasilah tarbiyah

And untuk menaiki ke tangga UA it is not enough with only usrah. But the main thing is usrah. Ada daurah, khatibah, muhayyam, tamrin, rehlah, jaulah dan riadah. You can search the meaning of these wasilah for further detail.

Tuntasnya, bangunlah kalian dari mimpi yang panjang. Setiap hari, kita hampir dengan kematian. Sudah sangat kemanisan yang disaji dengan dunia ni. Sehingga ia menjadi penyakit.. Nak ke kita tergolong dengan orang yang disebut dalam hadis. Orang yang berpenyakit wahn.. Wahn itu adalah apabila seseorang itu sangat mencintai dunia dan takut akan kematian.. Mari kita bersama-sama menimba ilmu Allah, bukan terhad untuk ustazah, ustaz, pelajar aliran agama... Muslim. Ini tanggungjawab setiap muslim untuk melengkapi tujuan hidup. Semoga kita diberi kefahaman agama.. In shaa Allah..

Friday, December 9, 2016

It's okay not to be ok

Assalamualaikum semua :)

Sebagai seorang manusia yang normal, menjadi sunnahtullah bila seseorang itu akan merasa dirinya sangat bahagia dan ada kalanya seseorang itu akan merasakan dirinya sangat-sangat teruk.. Apa yang aku nak cakap sebenarnya ni? Haha..

Hmmm, ntahlaa. Bila aku fikir, takyah sangat laa jadi emosional. Macam kau jea ada emosi. Masalah kau tu kecik gila. Cer kau tengok balik pergolakan dunia yang tak habis-habis ni. Darah merupakan tatapan mereka hari-hari. Sudah ke aku mengucap kata syukur? Masih dikurniakan nyawa untuk mengumpul bekal aku untuk hari yang bakal menyusul.. Masalah dengan manusia tak pernah habis! Kenapa aku kejam sangat dengan diri aku..

Jujur dari hati.. Kesabaran saya diuji... Terima kasih Allah, jika ujian ini membuat aku dekat denganMu. Sungguh aku sangat perlukanMu. Kerana kau mahu memberi tahu aku.. Yang aku tidak boleh meletakkan harapan kepada manusia sebaliknya hanya kepadaMu sahaja aku perlu berharap. Manusia tiada kuasa.. 

Aku tak tahu nak berlari ke mana. Perlu ke aku melarikan diri?

Memang orang sekeliling tengok aku macam happy and mungkin orang tengok aku hipokrit. To be honest, yes.. It seems like saya hipokrit. But the real thing is saya nak sehabis baik menahan sabar. Kerana saya tahu.. In shaa Allah setiap kesabaran saya membuahkan pahala.. Aamiin.. Kerana Rasulullah mahu kita mengelak daripada marah.. Bayangkan orang yang kau sayang.. tak percaya kau.. 

In shaa Allah setiap keburukan yang berlaku punya hikmah yang besar dalam hidup saya. Bila difikir balik. Saya tidak nak menyesal dengan musibahyang berlaku. Kerana saya yakin Allah akan menggantikan sesebuah kesedihan itu dengan perkara yang membahagiakan yang saya sendiri tak tahu. Mungkin kalau bukan sekarang.. nanti. Sebab itu SABAR.

Nanti saya buat entry panjang sikit berkenaan dengan sem yang paling mencabar setakat ini. Mencabar mental dan fizikal saya. Buat masa ni saya minta doa dari kalian.. Semoga segala perkara yang saya lakukan menuju redhaNya. In shaa Allah.. Babai <3

Sunday, October 23, 2016

People being "people"

Assalamualaikum,

So yeah, I am a second year student now. The year which I thought I'll be ok and I can manage my time systematically. You know what. University's student came from a lot kind of people. I talk about UNIVERSITY'S STUDENT. Tak payah cakap lagi laa orang luar. Please, I know people do have problems. Siapa tak ada tu bukan hidup kot. Tak pun mental problem. Susah if sorang marah and another one pun nak marah. Just please people. You talk to a human being just like yourself. Semua orang tahu tak semua orang sempurna. It is a normal thing kalau every first timer buat salah. That will make you learn. And if there is something wrong tak perlu nak terus marah.. Tengok dari semua sudut baru salahkan orang tu. Kalau nak marah pun, cuba kita reflect semua kindness yang dia pernah buat. Janganlaa sebab satu benda pun dah nak melenting. Please people.. I am mentally and physically tired.

I do not know your background story. Maybe datang dari keluarga yang ada isu.. But still, this world need some kindness. Serius saya sendiri penat. Kalau jadi kat diri sendiri ok laa since kadang-kadang dah biasa. Tapi bila tengok keadaan sekeliling yang macam tu, I don't get it why people does not have that common sense. Dah cantik agama kita atur adab-adab. Cakap jea adab apa. Adab terhadap rakan, adab terhadap ibu bapa. Adab terhadap guru. You name it. Sebab tu laa kan, kalau kita nak belajar agama tu jangan lihat pada orang tu. Tapi lihat pada Kitab yang kita pegang. 

Korang ingat Al-Quran yang turun sejak zaman Nabi Muhammad ni untuk sahabat-sahabat dan untuk orang zaman tu je ke? Korang rasa kenapa turunnya Al-Quran tu? Dan kenapa kita kena baca? Al-Quran tu bukan nabi yang buat. Al-Quran tu daripada pencipta kita sendiri. Kenapa dia nak bagi kat kita? Supaya kita dapat menjalani hidup ini dengan cara yang dia redha. Supaya kita sampai ke destinasi yang kita semua umat Islam impikan, Syurga Allah.

Kalau orang cipta printer ada buku manual untuk berfungsi, samalah kita. Kita pun perlu ada manual which is Kalam Allah untuk menjadi seorang muslim yang sejati. Masa hari perhitungan, Al-Quran akan tuntut hak dia.. Hak untuk dibacakan.. Korang tak nak ke Al-Quran jadi peneman kita kat kubur sorang-sorang nanti? 

Just nak cakap.. Berbaliklah kepada Al-Quran sahabat-sahabat.. Al-Quran adalah cara Allah berkomunikasi secara tidak langsung dengan kita. Cara dia nak melimpahkan kasih sayang dan menceritakan betapa kita manusia istimewa.. Peringatan untuk diri dan yang lain.

I am sorry, saya bukan nak tunjuk saya mengajar ke apa.. I am extremely tired with my everyday life yang penuh dengan hate and negativity. Since me myself pun susah nak recover from negative thought, just please people. Be kind to one another. Our prophet pbuh pun mesti sedih kalau baginda tengok kita melayan muslim yang lain macam tu kan? 

Lastly, to cool down all those masalah manusia, I want to share yesterday's program. Again, I jadi fasi for the last time ;) I feel at least something good happened to me lately. Adik-adik form 4 sangat baik. Terharu akak. Walaupun this program setiap bulan dari bulan 4 hari tu sampai Oktober.. dan saya join 2 kali jea.. I feel the great bond between me and the students.. Makasih kepada semua pihak yang terlibat dalam program ni especially kak Zura. Ni yang bersemangat nak jadi cikgu :3 bukan cikgu math laa. In shaa Allah cikgu bio :P Haha..

Wednesday, September 7, 2016

Tak semua orang dikurniakan hidayah dengan jalan yang mudah. Hidayah perlu dicari. Bukan turun dari langit. Mungkin Allah telah wujudkan secebis lintasan hati untuk kita berhijrah.. Tetapi itu tidak cukup. Kau ingat terus pakai tudung labuh, niqab, 1 hari 1 malam kau beribadat... Kau mampu ke buat dengan cuma lintasan tu? Cukup laa kita buat perlahan-lahan. Pokok pun melalui fasa. Sama juga dalam berhijrah. Cukuplah kita tanam nak suburkan hati yang mati. Mulalah kita berkawan dengan mereka yang cinta akan agama dan mengamalkannya. Mereka ada untuk mengukuhkan lagi lintasan yang Allah beri. Mana mungkin perjuangan berseorangan. Kita perlu bersama-sama dengan yang arif tentang agama. Dengan sumber yang dipercayai in shaa Allah. Kawan-kawan.. Hijrah itu memang tak semudah memakai stokin, hand sock. Ujian dia.. Allah saja yang tahu. Mungkin sebelum kita berhijrah.. Sahabat keliling pinggang, tetapi tidak selepas berhijrah. Mungkin lebih banyak fitnah yang tertabur setelah kita berhijrah. Tak hairan semua tu kerana benar kita berada di akhir zaman. Mereka yang solehah dituduh macam-macam. Perkara yang dosa sudah sebati dengan masyarakat muslim harini. Yang salah dibetulkan, yang betul disalahkan. Kerna itu cukupkan ilmu serta sucikan hati. In shaa Allah kita dilindungi dari terjebak ke arah "kesesatan orang2 akhir zaman" yang lahiriahnya muslim tetapi hatinya jahil. Allahu. Aku jauh dari sempurna. Tercari-cari jalan yang samar, dipenuhi ranting berduri. Semoga kita sama-sama dilindungi oleh Allah. Aamiin

Sunday, June 19, 2016

I am done with my junior year!

Assalamualaikum,

So, who else excited that finally! FINALLY final dah habis.. Yeahh I am so relived it was over.. Because serious dah 2 minggu I stress.. I start 5th june sampai 16th june. I hope tak basi lagi lah kan nak cerita.. Although today dah 19th -__- I took Cellular and Molecular Biology, Cellular Biochemistry and Metabolism, Analytical Chemistry, Introduction to Bioscience, Institusi Islam dan English. Lab saya adalah Metabolism and Analytical Chemistry. The lab test went a little bit on the worst side.. Just a tiny bit.. I hope so. Haha.. My group members for Metabolism's lab were me, kak akma, eija, hajar and jayson. While ana chem, I was coupled with hajar :) 

Kak akma, saya, sya, keyra, fahda and dayana (she's not in the pic but always in my heart <3)

Well, as always.. Rasa tak percaya dah masuk u and yet habis first year. Feel surreal.. Kelas saya one of the earliest yang habis exam.. Ada lagi yang tak habis.. Haha, unlike sem lepas.. Kitorang macam yang akhir-akhir balik. So, yeah.. This time is a little bit different than last sem's final. Since, obviously berlaku pada bulan yang barakah :D and this time we all not having a study group. It's quite hard.. Since sem 2 ni lebih cepat berbanding sem 1. Presentation, assignment, test, lab test, quiz.. Tu semua nak dekat study week bertubi-tubi x__x

We are matching row <33 We were all accidentally purple on that day 

Sem ni a little bit better than the previous one since I had roomate :) and I had a good friends for sure. Although kekadang tu macam masuk air XD But yeaa.. This sem does not have a lot of numbers, counting and involving calculator.. To be honest, I feel so weird.. Haha, masa nak study tu.. Baring-baring.. Sebab tak ada math kan.. Banyak kena faham dan hafal. 

My final went ok.. Boleh laaa. Not too hard yet not too easy.. The killer subject I would say Metabolism and maybe Analytical Chem.. And there was an unfortunate incident happened.. I don't want to talk about it here.

Guess who she is XD My cutie roomie bear :3 She's the one who taking care of me and in shaa Allah sem depan we are still be a roomie. Yay~~

Serius cepat rasa sem ni.. Yang I nak highlight mungkin pasal I join sukarelawan tadika, jadi usher MPG and fasi kem math tu.. I don't get involve a lot.. But that quite ok laa kan for 1 sem.. I will join a lot of this kind of activity hopefully :D Next Oh yeah, HBB (my analytical chemistry lecturer) He invited us to his house for makan-makan.. I adore his family.. So harmony. With berdinda-kanda. Berayahanda-bonda.. So cute.Masa final berjalan.. I asked my parents to bring along En. Viva.. Then my parents kata ok.. Ok memang tak laa I bawak kan.. So, Keyra.. She is the one that bawak kitorang gi venue exam.. So yeah. Thanks alot keyra :) And please, if anyone read this.. Doakan saya supaya berani and cekap memandu.. Tipulah kan cakap takde keinginan. Senang laa I nak balik.. Takyah setiap minggu call parents suruh amek sebab rumah pun jauh mana jea. 7 minit apart. And I pun membesar kat sini. There should be no problem interms of jalan.. The problem is with me :/

(saya, kak sikin, atilea) Kami berkunjung ke rumah lecturer kami, HBB 

I bawak my all time favourite food, mashed patatoes with some chicken with bolognese sauce on the bottom (kind of lasagna but different) to our mini iftar (lepas habis final).. Fahda bawak awesome carbonara with bubur lambuk. We gathered together like 9 people in my room. What a great day to end our last day of 1st year ;)

Doakan yaa! This 3 months break saya nak mahir drive~~~ I just finished Erased anime. It was so good XD

Tuesday, June 14, 2016

30 000 views XD

Assalamualaikum,




Just a cute short post. I am quite proud that we made it to 30 000 page views for about 5 years now. I know, for a typical bloggers, I am little bit way behind. Since, I am not a full time blogger and most of my post is not so informational.. Haha, so yeah :3 

Tinggal satu paper jea lagi awakkkkk! kyaaaaaa~~ X3
 
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